As I'm sure you've all figured out by now, I made enemies on She's Got The Look. I just don't put up with people treating me (or those around me) with disrespect. However, I make friends even faster. I think it's because I'm a mom; I couldn't wait to grow up, get married and have kids. As a parent, I tend to be fiercely protective of people I love — whether they're my kids or close friends. When I witness bad behavior, I can't help but call people out on it. I'm sorry about that — I wish I could be more understanding.

But the loud, rude and obnoxious behavior that I witnessed “behind the scenes” really affected me. I'm not the only one who noticed all of the fakeness, acting for the cameras and down-right bad sportsmanship. I'm just the only one who was willing to talk about it on camera. I just couldn't hide my true feelings just because the cameras were rolling.

I noticed every day how people around us were being treated by some of the models. The production crew, hair and makeup people, stylists and strangers on the streets. Beautiful models have an obligation to treat everyone around them with respect and common courtesy. Especially when you have a hundred people around you working hard to make you look good on TV. So how did I end up looking like the negative one… because I spoke the truth? Because I answered honestly when I was asked a question? Because I was unwilling to pretend that everything was peaches and cream every minute that the cameras were on?

It wasn't all bad. It was actually quite fun. Lots of laughs! I really wish you could've seen all the laughs and good bonding conversations that went on in the loft. It really was something special. We'd all stay up late and tell funny stories. We'd joke about the little tiffs we'd had, or lament about the stress and lack of sleep we were experiencing. Boy, don't we all look tired at this point in the competition? I'm happy that you got to see some special bonding moments this episode. Besides Jamie, I bonded mostly with Cindy. We have a lot in common. We shared so many memories from our pasts. She told me things that she hadn't talked about in years, and I her. She taught me a lot about forgiveness — how to forgive others and most importantly, how to forgive myself.

I'm sure it's hard to understand how hurt I was when Cindy threw me under the bus. But, you also don't know that pairing me with LeeAnne wasn't the first thing she did to me. Nor will it prove to be the last.

Then there was Jamie. I liked Jamie from the minute I met her. I like her even more today, as she has become my friend for life. She never complained and she treated everyone with respect. She was willing to learn and take full advantage of this wonderful experience. I'm sure she would've loved to win. Like me, Jamie would've never thought to compromise her integrity or stab a friend in the back to win a competition. Because, at the end of the day, you still have to live with yourself and the knowledge of how you stepped on someone to get to the top. Jamie is just so beautiful, and she has a pure heart. How special was it that she was thinking of her husband when she was shooting with Matt?

I cried when they kicked her off. It was just so unfair to see her go, when, in my eyes, Theresa should've been sent packing that day. Theresa complained about almost everything we did, every piece of clothing she was given and every challenge that we went through. It was quite sickening. Oh… but when the cameras were rolling, it was a different story! She didn't feel comfortable modeling with Matt, and as a result it showed in her photo. I thought Jamie's photo with Matt was gorgeous! "Too athletic?" I think not!

What I can tell you about my experience is that I'm honest, up front and real. I don't mince words or hide my true feelings. I'm an actor by trade, but I only act when I'm given a script, unlike some of the other women on this show, I never turn it on just for the camera. I was appalled at all of the complaining that went on pretty much nonstop.

I do regret being so hard on LeeAnne. We are just two completely different people. She is loud and obnoxious. Always acting for the cameras, always monopolizing the conversations. But I must say, she is her own biggest advocate. I wish I had the confidence in myself that LeeAnne has in herself. I didn't like a lot of the things she said about the other girls, but you know what? At least she never pretended to like me. She never lulled me into a false sense of friendship so she could set me up for failure — she was quite open about her desire to see me fail! I was pretty happy when Jayme Thornton told her to stop talking so much, as he really did speak for many of us.

I was so thrilled to win the leg-up challenge this week. I was so happy to finally prove to Sean that I was learning to become a better model. I love that the challenge involved children. I've had children around me every day since I was 25 years old. I always have a houseful. And I love every minute of it! My motto is treat kids with respect and understanding, and you'll get rewarded with the purest of love in return. I also hope that Jayme liked shooting me as much as I enjoyed being photographed by him.

My photo shoot with Fadil and Matt was also so much fun — I couldn't believe that a big-time New York model was telling me how beautiful I am. I had a blast! Couldn't you tell by watching? Surely there must be a ton of great pictures from that day.

I loved all of the people who helped every shoot come together, the hair stylists from Cutler, the makeup artists from Makeup Forever, our wardrobe stylist Alicia and all of the wonderfully talented photographers. They were all so amazing, helpful, REAL and encouraging. These are people with whom I would like to surround myself for the rest of my life. Fake, cutthroat contestants in a modeling competition I can live without.

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